“Use The Force.”

There isn’t anything any more relevant than Star Wars right now, and rightfully so.  But don’t worry, before I move on, I want to let you know that this isn’t going to be about a galaxy far, far away explaining Jedis v. Siths.  Quite frankly, I wouldn’t even know how, nor do I have a care to.  I’m keeping this in our own little rock in the universe.

But I have been curious about “The Force.”  More so, I always find interest in blurring the lines between fantasy and reality, fiction and fact, Thelma and Louise even (if I’m intoxicated enough).  I question the following, “What is The Force?  In the way it is depicted in the films (violently at times), it does not exist in our reality – but can it?  If not now, then when?  Wait, what if it IS real?  What if we can use The Force today?  How would it be, what would it look like, how would it feel?”

To further the dialogue, let’s create a twist in the plot.  Let’s say The Force does exist.  Today.  Right now.  Flowing to and from, travelling with the air we currently breathe.  So how do we make sense of it?  How can we latch onto something we find every day, in various doses and strengths, to help explain it?  What would be the one thing we understand today that closely relates to The Force?

How about… attraction.

There’s different understandings, and two that I know of.  There’s the Law of Attraction, which, in a nutshell, means “like attracts like.”  Then there’s “opposites attract,” which, on a sub-atomic level, explains that protons (positively charged particles) like to get cozy and warm with neutrons (negatively charged particles).  Yes, I remember grade school science, and you should, too.

I would then further the consideration that The Force would involve both laws, that we can both attract the opposite, and we can attract the like.  Make no mistake – either way, the attraction exists, and it exists in many layers.

Attraction – specifically this one particular attraction – cannot be ignored.  It cannot be masked, there’s absolutely nowhere to hide.  This attraction cannot be fooled into believing it is a mistake.  More often than not I attempt to convince myself otherwise, that this attraction can be fought, and I must fight against it.  Yet how does that make any sense, when everything I have felt about you has taught me everything I’ve needed to defeat lingering demons of past months, past years?  Like a melody and a chorus, it would only feel utterly wrong if the two were kept apart.

So then, I have to pretend, don’t I?  I have to pretend that fighting against you is what I want to do.  I have to pretend that I don’t feel nervous in your presence.  I have to pretend that I am not foolish, even when I have already come to terms that I’m the best fool I know.

And I have to pretend that I hate the way you look at me.  And I really hate that.

Attraction, while it has done much pushing and pulling, has not brought about any staying power between you and I.  Definitely not now.  Probably not tomorrow, or next week.  I don’t know when – hell, if ever – and I’m not going to count the time.  All I want to feel right now, is that it will happen.  But I’ll make sure to pretend that I don’t want that, either.

The Force is strong with her.